In my phone lately #2 - November

Friday, December 6, 2019

Hello lovely people of the internet.
I'm doing pretty well. I still tend to have wild waves of sadness but in the meantime I kick ass in other parts of my life. There is a vision of a new life for me, far away from GdaƄsk. This is my beloved city, but all my demons are still here. I will keep you updated.


In my phone lately

Tuesday, October 22, 2019

My therapy is over. Now I'm trying to find the usual stuff back in my life. I'm having a lot od walks and books. Autumn is beautiful this year, I could sit in these leaves forever. I hope you're staying warm. Keep all the sunny days deep in you.


This time in Warsaw

Monday, September 16, 2019

It’s the middle of my therapy - I feel like a hole in the ground, open and vulnerable like a fresh wound. I still do my best to cope with all the feelings I’m experiencing but there are moments where I feel lost like a child. Only five weeks to go and I’m so sensitive, the most I’ve been so far. I miss my friends but I have no energy to give them my time. It will pass, they say.
Hopefully, cause in November I need to start work again and do my best to catch up with everything I missed. I need to prove myself I’m good enough. Or better - I need to believe I’m good enough.


Colors of August

Friday, August 16, 2019

Another year - another post full of flowers and plants it is! I always feel the best taking pictures of nature, no matter how many years I do it for.
My therapy is slowly going forward - third week is over now. It's this stage where you feel totally exhausted but you still try to believe it's only temporary. And probably it is - they warned us about it.
I seek calm in art, I read a lot, I watch a lot of movies, I walk a lot.
Is it me or this summer holidays went by really fast?


Dusty

Friday, July 26, 2019

This blog got really dusty recently. I was in a dark pit, full of nerves and stress. Today I was admitted to day care psychiatric hospital, specialized in depression. I'm not ashamed to need help. It's been too many years to waste an opportunity to get better. I am very scared but full of hope. Keep your fingers crossed for me please. I will do my best to blog regularly now.


Very expired.

Sunday, June 9, 2019

Long time no see!
I had a busy time at work and school - btw school goes great, I totally love it. I passed all my tests so far and I passed them well.
These photos you see right now are not the best. But this time there's a reason for it - the film roll I used expired in... 2009. I was sure there'll be a huge mess but I was too curious how the photos turn out not to try and load it into my camera.
Any plans for holidays? I plan to work hard for some cosy weekends outside of the city. I need that.